IF YOUR BABY'S GOING CRAZY

I had the flu last week, from Wednesday night. It was horrible. I realise that I am miserable when I'm ill in any scenario, but while having to look after an 11 week old baby on my own, I felt really stranded. It's times like that when I really miss my parents cos I know my mom would have helped me take care of the baby.

I was afraid I wouldn't be well enough to go to the 10th Sinister birthday picnic on Primrose Hill on Saturday, so I took it easy on Thursday and Friday. Luckily I was able to keep food down by Friday evening, so I was feeling much better for Saturday. What a beautiful day it was! So much fun!

Now it's Monday evening and I'm feeling very depressed. I think because I haven't seen my other friends with babies for 5 days now and I'm feeling very isolated. I dunno, maybe I'm just overly-emotional today. I really could just cry for no good reason. James is being an angel so far today, really smiley and cute and napping well. I went for a walk, went to the cafe and had peppermint tea and salad, came home and now I'll take the washing off the clothesline while James is still asleep in his pushchair. Fingers crossed he stays asleep long enough!

Ben will be off for 2 days starting tomorrow. I hope that we're able to get things done and spend time with each other. I have my postnatal class tomorrow and I'm taking James to the cranial osteopath on Wednesday. I think Ben might come along, we'll see!