A TOILET FACTORY IN ITALY.

Just 12 more work days to go. Then I will never have to step foot in this place again. I think that idea is the only thing that kept me from losing my temper today. These people I work with are just so careless and sloppy. I am so sick of having to do and re-do the same project just because they don't THINK or even use spell-check. Heaven help the new graphic designer that is about to start.

So, I was updating my portfolio last night and I felt like it was sub-par. Not surprising, coming from a girl with a bad attitude. I remember before I got this job, I had the same feeling, like I was on the brink of being able to demonstrate what I can do, but just not quite able to produce the examples. It's funny, too, because as I pulled those old examples out of my portfolio, they weren't as bad as I had remembered them being. I replaced them with newer things that I produced in the last 3 years working here and I felt that same frustration. I wish I had a moment of clarity, where I could see exactly what sort of printed piece or demonstrated process is missing. I used to have those all the time, before my very esscence was being drained on a daily basis.

Half of me is idealistic. I think about what I don't like about my job here and promise myself that I won't put up with that sort of thing ever again. I'll take a stand and fight to improve things that could be done differently. I won't let other people drag me down. Then the other half of me just feels apathetic. There's no use, every place will be the same... but I know that isn't true.

I'm excited thinking about the flat that Ben and I will rent in London in the very near future. I wonder where it will be and what our neighbourhood will be like. I am so thrilled that we will be able to take a bit of time to drive up north to see Ben's family, and that I will finally get to meet his dad (who has a birthday coming up very soon!) It will be surreal to be at a Manchester United match at Old Trafford. It will be a nice holiday.

Ben has put up my design website that we made together at www.rachelappsdesign.com. I think it looks pretty great!

I hate packing stuff to move. I think it's one of the worst tasks EVER.